My friend picked this one out of my poetry journal hope you all enjoy it. :)
your letters, my diary
your shirt, your cap
along with the map to our
old picnic spot.
all of these painful memories
I place in a box.
Today, I'm liberated
from my past.
and from the painful
Relationship
that did not last.
Burning them until
they are nothing.
Not long after dark
I build a fire
forgetting the pain is
my sole desire.
Memory by Memory
the flames, they
grow higher.
Soon all your lies are
Engulfed in Fire.
Soon there is nothing
but ashes.
I stand to leave
Because the fire removed
your memory from
my life,
only to reveal the scars
you left on my heart.
Friday, March 29, 2013
My Poisonous Thoughts
I guess some would say posting my thoughts up on this blog shows that I lack tact. But honestly I do not care what they think. I think that people should be able to post their thoughts and opinions so that maybe they can receive help or encourage some one in the same position as them. In this blog post I will be going through some of the poisonous thoughts that have gone through my head this week. I warn that some of the thoughts are depressing but they are my real thoughts and have been all this week if not my entire life. I will encourage you in the fact though that I have not lost hope and that I will overcome this like I have so many times before.
Its always my fault, at least that is what they have told me. Its MY fault that the friendship is failing. Its MY fault that my family is shredded. Its MY fault that everyone is mad. ITS MY FAULT. And maybe they are right. Maybe everything is truly my fault. That possibly my flaws are the reason that everything has suddenly decided to go to hell this week. Maybe it is all my flaws that make me the prime target for their hatred and anger. Maybe if I was just like them, they would not be so quick to blame me, mistreat me, hate me.
But that is the problem, I will never be like them. I will never be shallow enough to believe that I might also be partially if not entirely to blame. I will not get my ego boost off another persons humiliation. I will not let someone get an ego boost off my humiliation because when there is nothing to humiliate their can be no humiliation. Yes, I am that weird girl who will never get asked to prom. And yes I am that weird girl that over thinks everything and trusts nobody. But at least I am me, at least I am always me. I can gain strength from all the self loathing and the hatred people show towards me. I will grow even when my own friends turn against me.
Nothing can hold me back except for me and I refuse to do that. I do not have time for the people who only have time for themselves. I do not have time for the people that want to hurt me. I am always going to be me, I was not born to please everyone. Therefore I will not waste my time trying to please everyone because to please everyone is like praying for snow in a desert or praying for 100 degree weather on top of Mt. Everest. It is completely useless no one will ever be completely happy so why waste my valuable time trying to please them?
If any of you think that I need help, just letting you know that I already know this fact but thanks for the concern. If any of you have questions about my thought process or anything else feel free to email me at the address I will have listed below. And if any of you have any poem ideas or are wondering when I will be posting my next one I will let you know that I am posting one or two right after this so do not worry I have not totally forgotten about posting my poetry. Also if there are any of you who want me to dedicate a poem to you or to someone for you feel free to email me about it and I will either post it on here or email it back to you. I love all of you guys and thank you for reading my blog it means a lot to me.
Love always, Moriah
darklordsdaughter1@gmail.com
Its always my fault, at least that is what they have told me. Its MY fault that the friendship is failing. Its MY fault that my family is shredded. Its MY fault that everyone is mad. ITS MY FAULT. And maybe they are right. Maybe everything is truly my fault. That possibly my flaws are the reason that everything has suddenly decided to go to hell this week. Maybe it is all my flaws that make me the prime target for their hatred and anger. Maybe if I was just like them, they would not be so quick to blame me, mistreat me, hate me.
But that is the problem, I will never be like them. I will never be shallow enough to believe that I might also be partially if not entirely to blame. I will not get my ego boost off another persons humiliation. I will not let someone get an ego boost off my humiliation because when there is nothing to humiliate their can be no humiliation. Yes, I am that weird girl who will never get asked to prom. And yes I am that weird girl that over thinks everything and trusts nobody. But at least I am me, at least I am always me. I can gain strength from all the self loathing and the hatred people show towards me. I will grow even when my own friends turn against me.
Nothing can hold me back except for me and I refuse to do that. I do not have time for the people who only have time for themselves. I do not have time for the people that want to hurt me. I am always going to be me, I was not born to please everyone. Therefore I will not waste my time trying to please everyone because to please everyone is like praying for snow in a desert or praying for 100 degree weather on top of Mt. Everest. It is completely useless no one will ever be completely happy so why waste my valuable time trying to please them?
If any of you think that I need help, just letting you know that I already know this fact but thanks for the concern. If any of you have questions about my thought process or anything else feel free to email me at the address I will have listed below. And if any of you have any poem ideas or are wondering when I will be posting my next one I will let you know that I am posting one or two right after this so do not worry I have not totally forgotten about posting my poetry. Also if there are any of you who want me to dedicate a poem to you or to someone for you feel free to email me about it and I will either post it on here or email it back to you. I love all of you guys and thank you for reading my blog it means a lot to me.
Love always, Moriah
darklordsdaughter1@gmail.com
Monday, March 25, 2013
Dark Poisins
I lay awake
listening to you breathe
feeling your heartbeat
with my fingertips
I look you over
seeing, memorizing
the beauty you possess
knowing that I in all my hard work
will never deserve you
Yet you are here
laying next to me
your scent fills the air
your smile
is so intoxicating
Your kisses the antidote
to the self-hatred
that poisons me.
Tuesday, March 19, 2013
All About Moriah
Hey! I'm Moriah and I know that the title of this blog post must sound semi conceited but honestly that is what this post is going to really be about. I hope to get to talk to some of you so at the end of this post I am going to leave my email address so those of you who really like what I write can get to know me better.
I'm 17 and I live in this little 1.5 horse railroad town in New Mexico. For those of you who are not aware of what New Mexico is let me clarify. No! It is not the fresher version of the Old Mexico. But anyway I have been writing for as long as I can remember and I write all the time. Even when I look like I am just staring off into space I am actually thinking about all the endless topics for new poems I could write. I never stop writing!! My friends are amazing they always give me a sense of what their lives are like. Unknown to one of them several of my poems are based off of some of the quirky little things she does. I am apparently stubborn and smart I love anything to do with hands on learning. And I will read anything but my actual text books.Its a wonder I am actually making good grades at all.
My poems are all written off of emotions I feel throughout the day. I make it a habit of spilling everything from my soul daily onto a piece of paper. Some people say my poems are dark and depressing, well yeah they are but you have to remember my poems are written off of my soul. I cling to my dark side and by doing so I write crazy deep things because I do not hinder myself from feeling every emotion which I think is necessary when one is writing poetry.
Well that is all for now. I will probably be back to update the blog templates and add a poem or two later so I guess I better hit the sack. I have a long day tomorrow in between school and my new found blogging addiction. I hope to hear from some of you guys soon. And feel free to request that I write you a poem, I love doing that.
Love, Moriah
thedarklordsdaughter1@gmail.com
I'm 17 and I live in this little 1.5 horse railroad town in New Mexico. For those of you who are not aware of what New Mexico is let me clarify. No! It is not the fresher version of the Old Mexico. But anyway I have been writing for as long as I can remember and I write all the time. Even when I look like I am just staring off into space I am actually thinking about all the endless topics for new poems I could write. I never stop writing!! My friends are amazing they always give me a sense of what their lives are like. Unknown to one of them several of my poems are based off of some of the quirky little things she does. I am apparently stubborn and smart I love anything to do with hands on learning. And I will read anything but my actual text books.Its a wonder I am actually making good grades at all.
My poems are all written off of emotions I feel throughout the day. I make it a habit of spilling everything from my soul daily onto a piece of paper. Some people say my poems are dark and depressing, well yeah they are but you have to remember my poems are written off of my soul. I cling to my dark side and by doing so I write crazy deep things because I do not hinder myself from feeling every emotion which I think is necessary when one is writing poetry.
Well that is all for now. I will probably be back to update the blog templates and add a poem or two later so I guess I better hit the sack. I have a long day tomorrow in between school and my new found blogging addiction. I hope to hear from some of you guys soon. And feel free to request that I write you a poem, I love doing that.
Love, Moriah
thedarklordsdaughter1@gmail.com
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